A Time to Ponder

The following is a partial entry. if it gets some comments I will finish it. It is a little old, like 2 months, but I wanted to get something up. Podcast comming this week so keep a watch out for it.

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I have gotten a little behind on this yet again. There has been a lot things going on with me, and I am sure that all of you are just itchin for me to enlighten you. Well sorry but I am not going to do that here at this time.

The question for today is.. . . .

Is it really the things that we know that make us smart? or not smart?

We all think very differently. Some people have earned the title of "smart" and others have earned the title of "not as smart" (word that how you will). Why is this? why do some of us get these different titles? I know people that have different titles, both of which are on opposite sides of the spectrum.

Am I smart? I often wonder if I would be called that, or if I would be just called dumb. I don't think about it too often, and I know that there are things that I am very smart about, and other things that I am not. But in the eyes of those around me I wonder what they think about me from time to time. If I am the kind of person that they would come to for advice.

Does it really matter what others think about us? I guess in the great scheme of things it does not really matter what others think. We seem to all know this, and yet we all seem to forget this as life goes on. The ones that truely ignore what others think about us seem to be happier. What is so special about them? I don't know, perhaps it is the ability to sustain their own lives with out the need of other people attention.

I often try to separate myself from the need of other peoples attention to be succsesfull, or to find pride in my work. I have found however that it is harder than it seems to do that. lets give an example of what I am talking about:

I used to work for a cleaning company, and at that time I was a supervisor at a building over the night shift. I was wanted to do something to spice up the look of the building with some detail cleaning. So I elected to clean the push plates on all of the doors. So I got the tools required to polish them and then begain to polish. Well when I was done, I realozed that they were all clean evenly. That in reality most people are not going to notice cuase they are not going to have anything to compair it to. so to let people know about all of the work that I do, I left half of some of the push plates unpolished.

The next day I got a call from the facility manger and he told me that he liked the work that I had done and asked when I would finish the rest of them. I told him the I was going to do so that night, and of course I did.

Now would this guy have noticed the job that I had done if i had not left half of it incompleted? I don;t know nor will I ever I guess, but the point is I was looking for the approval of this person to alllow me to think that I did a good job. Is it not good enough that I could have.